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[ Sunday, May 07, 2006 ]
A series of unfornatured events..
okaii.. 1stly i got my hair cut.. damm short and ugly... sians half liao.. i got nth to say le.. 2ndly.. my hp cnt connect to my comp.. so cnt load all the pics.. very sians..
y everytime i got a very short hair cut and my family will say very nice.. and everytime i got a hair style of my own liking.. i cnt get my family to like it.. sometimes even my friends.. izzit that i hav no sense of fashion..? very sians and tired.. i also wish to do smth i like onli.. but cnt get the support from ppl.. mainly form my family.. i realli wish to do alot of things.. but i cnt..
i also wish to like ppl.. find a gal to like or smth.. but y as always i cnt get to find a gal i like..? no.. my standard is not high.. or izzit i am short..? i cnt find a reason..
my basketball skills.. i am not that great.. but y i am even not considered a better player..? i worked hard.. i played hard.. but i just cannot find ppl who recognize my hard work.. izzit that i didnt work enough..? my knee cnt function as well since sec 2.. cuz i listen to my coach in school.. he once said"whoever work hard will get into school team even if u are not a good player.."got once i go for stamina run.. i ran for 4.8 km at least.. its not a long dist but the doc say my nerves overwork.. but no 1 even wish to care abt it.. i did not get a position in sec school.. all i hoped for is to get into school team thru my hard work.. even i noe that i am not that great.. but wad did i get.. i get nothing.. worse still.. the coach didnt even let me play in friendly matchs in sec 3.. i was sent by him to become the offical.. i quit in sec 4 and play outside.. thats not the place for me i think..
till now.. my skills hav not been recognized.. i am a failure in other words.. am i realli that bad..? is it cuz i not tall enough...? izzit cuz i didnt shoot well..? or izzit i didnt contribute enough..? i cnt get a answer also..
k.. donno y i rite all this ppl.. but.. its something that come thru my mind.. so i jus rite.. maybe to u guys.. this is nth.. but.. to me.. its like a scar that cnt be written off..
but luckily.. i got a grp of buddies.. even time go out wif them.. all my worries are gone.. but its short-term onli.. once i am alone at home.. all thought come into my head again.. maybe i sld listen to 1 of my buddies.. look forward and don care wad ppl think of me..
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by New skyer
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