WHERE SHOULD I HEAD TO?
i donno how to post this as.
what title to put. or how to name this post.
but no matter what. am going to post this.
i am not sure but.
i am confused at this point of time.
why? i dont know. its just like i am changing.
my character. has changed.
but my heart. has not change. have not gone away. but.
things are getting not right. i end up hurting someone.
end up. she is waiting for my answer. why?
i dont know. okaii. let me put things in a clear view.
now. i have got 2 path to go. in fact. 3.
lets narrow down to 2 first. lets name it plan A and plan B.
plan A.
i end everything.
i make her sad. i make myself sad.
this is what i dont wish. i really dont wish to happen.
BUT. it can make her forget me in time.
this way, it will be the last time i make her sad and thats it.
she will be the happy one all over again.
me will continue to help everyone around me and make everyone happy.
it sounds easy huh. but.
am i able to put it down?
拿得起，放得下。
i donno. i think i wont be able to do that until some big things happen.
plan B
back to the past.
everything will be cool i guess.
i will be able to be happy. she too.
quite a good way to slove the problem. but.
to come to think of it.
what if this kind of problems arise?
when i dont get hints, when i dont know what is happening.
when cold war starts again? i dont know what to do.
than it will be like this again. i am sad. she is sad.
everything will be back in square one. i donno.
the 2 plans. yes. has it good and bad.
but overall. i need to choose one.
what will i choose? i dont know. bugging me for a couple of days aldy.
i am thinking of a better situation here.
i really need to think carefully. before i make a move that i will regret.
yea.
sorry i am being slow on coming up with the answer.
i really want us to be together.
but whenever this kind of things come up, it will be like the same again.
as you have said. i have never change.
i am still the silly me. my mind is really square.
maybe you can tell me wad to do next?
i dont wish to make desisions alone.
lets find a solution together okaii?
i dont wish to end things as fast.
but i dont wish to hurt you further.
"how can i be happy when my princess is so sad at the moment right now?"
i am not happy now.
i am not sad now.
i look forward to school.
i look forward to help people.
i look forward to seeing you.
i look forward to see you happy.
i look forward to see everyone happy.
what is the best solution?
where can i find it?
jingkai;
