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[ Thursday, February 04, 2010 ]
My greatest grandfather, how I wish you are still by my side
I don't think a lot of my viewers(if any) will understand what am I saying now but I feel that I have the urge to type it out. I think the same few of my close ones will know how close am I with my grandfather and hence they will understand this post.
No matter how happy I am nowadays,
No matter how sad I am nowadays,
No matter what high and low I am going through,
I am always thinking of my grandfather.
I want to share my happiness with him,
I want to share my sadness with him.
I really miss him, I guess its is going to be the 4th year I am without him, but everytime I think of him, I will really feel like crying. In fact, I am feeling my tears now. I just really miss him. I miss him alot. I really regret not seeing him for the last time. I really regret going to work as a camp instructor that day when he pass away. I really feel very bad..
I wish he is here to eat early dinner with me.
I wish he will wipe my hair like how he used to whenever I am done bathing.
I wish he still tell me stories about war time.
I miss the times when he bring me to school during primary school days.
I miss the times when he wait for me after my school at the usual place.
I miss the time when he buy me snacks during my kindergarten days.
I miss the times when he shield me from canes when my mother is angry with me.
I miss the times when we played our bolster game together.
I miss the times when we go for breakfast and walk early in the morning.
I really regret I didnt go breakfast as much I as I wanted to.
Now I really blame myself for being a pig and sleep so much and not waking up early to go drink coffee with him.
I know he is either in a very good new life now or enjoying in heaven, but I really wish he is still with me even till now. I want to tell him i got selected for interview to be in the best unit in army, I wanted to tell him I get good grades in Poly, I want to tell him alot of things. I really do. I really want him to be in my 21st birthday. I miss him. I really miss him. He played such an important role in my life for 17 years, he is the closest kin I ever had. I want to tell him I have been a good boy till now. I have not gone bad.
This is not the first time I miss him so much, in fact, I miss him almost every day.
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